I'm a freelancer and I'm feeling overwhelmed.
This makes me absolutely certain I'm not cut-out for the big, corporate, high-flying, uber-busy-all-the-time world.
I've usually had jobs in places that were fairly laid back, but with the needed jolts of busy-ness here and there. I haven't had jobs where people run around, frantic, super stressed, shoulders arched and eyes buzzing in caffeine frenzies. Well, actually, that's not entirely true.
Nowadays, I work from home, waking up at about 6:37am, and going to bed around 1am. I spend 10+ hours working. Most of my work is online so I don't have too many distractions unless I get sucked into Facebook...and, well, that certainly happens.
As a freelancer, I take on the projects I want. I'm fairly in control of my own schedule and I thrive on the flexibility that gives me.
The problem is I've recently put a lot on my own plate. And as mentioned above, I'm not one that gets off on being super busy all the time.
Over the last several months, I've carved out several different projects to work on. Some of them are big. Some of them are not. Many take up a lot of time.
I'm realizing I need to come up with a system, a systematic approach, to reach my goals while still taking care of myself and getting the rest I need so I don't continue to feel overwhelmed.
See, this weekend, I had a bit of a meltdown. Just a bit of one. Maybe a tantrum, really.
I was tired. Really tired. My body had been giving me all sorts of red flags to slooooow down. There was the migraine. And, well, the fatigue. And then there's that nasty Mycoplasma Infection our family had over the holidays that could still be holding on by a small thread. There's the elevated blood pressure, too.
All of these things I've pretty much been ignoring. I've been too excited to give in. Though tired, I've been on a roll and I didn't want to stop. Or slow down. I have too many plans - plans that make me happy and excited - to consider slowing down.
During my tantrum, I wasn't - er - very nice to The Husband and owed him an apology. After telling him I was just "so tired," he told me I needed to start having fun, not work on the weekends, and realize most of the deadlines and pressure I put on myself is self-imposed.
He's right, of course; but I still am not sure how to make time for the fun when I have the self-imposed deadlines on purpose so that I can reach my Big Dreams and Big Goals.
Then I got sick that night. Flu. Food poisoning. I'm not sure which. From the early hours of Sunday morning until mid-day today, I've been mostly in bed. I can hold food down now. That's good. And I have more energy.
I said I was tired and needed to sleep, and then had no choice but to do that. I did work a bit, too. From bed. But just bursts here and there.
Enter: guilt. I feel guilty that it takes awhile to reply to emails sometimes and that I'm behind on the two e-courses I'm taking. I feel guilty that there are a few people I haven't been responsive to at all, which is unlike me. I feel guilty that I can see a slippery slope is starting to emerge. (If you're one of the people I haven't replied to yet, I'm sorry!!)
Though I'm realizing I need to figure out ways to take better care of myself AND better care of my schedule, I'd be curious to know what works for you.
What are some strategies that you use to help you break-down your goals and get them done. What if you're working on multiple projects at a time?