Yum! Yum! Pizza Seaweed! (sarcasm) |
On the way to school this morning, I was pretty sure we had a breakthrough.
“When we go back home, can we bring seaweed?” my daughter
asked. This is it, I thought. She’s completely adjusting to life here
now. She’s going to want seaweed for
lunch in America. Yes!
“Sure! We can take seaweed back,” I replied excitedly.
“Two boxes? Pizza
flavored?” she asked. (Yes, there is pizza flavored seaweed. It’s all the
rage.)
“No problem.”
“YAY!” F exclaimed when I agreed we could take five boxes of
seaweed. Puhhlleeez, I will buy stock in
pizza seaweed if I need to, as long as this means she’s totally assimilating to
life in Yangon, I told myself.
I felt so excited. All the kids here have seaweed at lunch
and now she wants it back in the States! I resisted telling her one of my best
friends, E, who lives in Oregon, already buys seaweed for her boys. Pretty sure
F would’ve wanted to board a plane RIGHT THEN to go home. So I stayed quiet.
“…Mom. When is it
five years?” Shiiiit, I thought. My daughter
knows we may live in Myanmar for up to five years.
“A long time, sweetie,” I answered softly. Silence.
“I think five years is a bad idea, Mom.” What could I
say? Be honest? Tell her sometimes
I think five years is a bad idea, too? Tell her that it will be OK?
“You know, sweetpea, it’s already been almost HALF of a year
since we left. That’s gone by pretty quick, hasn’t it?” I hoped that would
work: it was the truth, it didn’t discredit her feelings, but was still optimistic...
“AH!! I’m starting to feel a miracle!!” my daughter
exclaimed.
I was starting to feel one, too.
Maybe we didn’t have the kind of breakthrough I thought we
were having at the beginning of the conversation this morning; but, we still had
one. We were able – for the first time since March – discuss home and time frames
without there being some sort of mini - or maxi - dramatic event. Progress.
This is transitioning. The: In Process. We’re still going through
it. We’re getting closer to balance...
A place where we can stand right in the middle of the two homes overseas. We can look towards the Pacific: sigh, smile, think of all that is known and familiar and loved. We can look where we are standing now, and know it’s OK, that we are together, and that it’s becoming familiar.
A place where we can stand right in the middle of the two homes overseas. We can look towards the Pacific: sigh, smile, think of all that is known and familiar and loved. We can look where we are standing now, and know it’s OK, that we are together, and that it’s becoming familiar.
Good job mom :)
ReplyDeleteLove ya both !!
Thanks, Dad!
DeleteWe love you, too.
We love Nori too! But the breakthrough, that is awesome. Love you!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Gen! :-) I miss you so much. I wish I could just call you and talk about seaweed! lol
DeleteLove you. <3
You are an amazing mama my dear sweet friend!
ReplyDelete-Molly
Awww, thanks Molly. I miss you!!
DeleteYOU are an amazing mommy. Dylan is so lucky to have you. :)
Love you!